Against the Odds

My Love – My Dear Sir,

We both know that being together, at this time, is not an option. We have discussed the cliché “never say never” as well as having hope. If I ever get the chance to be in your arms again, I don’t think I could ever leave them. I know I wouldn’t want to. That thought actually frightens and exhilarates me at the same time

Realistically, I know how I feel about you. I also know that I would take the risk of being hurt again if the opportunity arises to be together once more. Also, if I were honest, I am still dealing with the past hurt. I am chipping away at the stone, and then you come along and whack it with a sledgehammer. The fact that you are wanting and willing to help me smash old baggage melts my heart.

I love you so much.

Thoroughly yours,

Darling

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My Darling

I know we cannot be together. I see no way that fact will change. You tell me “never say never” and I want to believe you, even though my brain tries to deny it. However in my heart all hope is not extinguished. I want to be with you my Darling, even though I think it unlikely. Your choice of frightened and exhilarating is perfect. My fear of failure is palpable. To hurt you once  more would send me into a spiral of depression. One from which I may never recover.

To hold you in my arms again? That thought has me almost in tears. Like almost fifteen years ago, the one hurdle we had to face was the physical. Unlike then, we now know of our compatibility. While I think if we were ever to be in the same room together both of our anxieties would be swept aside. The lead up to that first meeting though would be both excruciating and intense. I am not sure I would be in any way sensible or articulate as I awaited that day.

Yes, I know there is past hurt for you to deal with. I will help in any way that I can. If at the end of that process you decide that we can just be friends, well it will make me sad but I will understand. I inflicted a hurt of great enormity. To be at this point at all truly astounds me. For it to go any further would be a miracle. I am not that lucky my Darling, that was always some other guy.

Longingly Yours

From Sir With Love

©2013 Darling and Sir

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16 comments on “Against the Odds

  1. cupitonians says:

    I had a similar struggle, wondering if love would ever be enough. If you decide it is, nothing can be more powerful. I hope the both of you persevere.

  2. I know you understand what it means. I will do my level best to stay the course.

    Regards
    Sir

  3. Reblogged this on walkingwithherforever and commented:
    Well, like I have always believed, here are two people who prove time and again that true love permeates through all obstacles and difficulties. The way the love is ‘realised’ could be different, but true love does exist and here is living proof.

  4. Like SHE says, we make our own luck. The pragmatic side of my mind scoffs at that, but the romantic embraces it.
    Sir, if I could have two wishes in my life, one of it would be for you two to be together. You know what my other wish would be. In fact, if I had just one wish, I would give it to you two as well. There is no point in using it on myself as I do not wish to impose any magic on HER.

  5. ….And also because you two deserve each other more than I deserve her.

  6. I thought i typed that earlier but missed it out. My apologies

  7. Gede Prama says:

    Thank you for writing which is quite good, best wishes always for writing and best wishes always and greetings
    kindness blossoms in your heart

  8. I’m reading this and I understand how you feel you could give up easily because it’s hard trying to make things work when distance and your past haunt you constantly. But I believe, with all my heart, that the two of you are too far into this special relationship now to turn back. So keep fighting. Be the romantics I know you are and DONT GIVE UP. That would make all your followers so angry 😛 haha. Love Megs

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