My Romantic Sir,
I am an avid Jane Austen fan. I adore her character Mr. Darcy; I admit I have a tiny crush on a fictional character (stop cringing). Pride and Prejudice is one of my all-time favorite movies. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve watched it. When I saw you for the first time, I knew I had found my own real life Mr. Darcy.
It didn’t take me long to come to the conclusion that you surpassed Mr. Darcy; you were much, much better. Mr. Darcy suffered by comparison. Elizabeth asks Mr. Darcy when he began to fall in love with her. His response is one I will use to answer that same question for you:
“I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look, or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun.”
Nearly 15 years ago when you decided you no longer wanted me, I imagined you saying this famous Mr. Darcy line about me, “She is tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me.” And I would ache.
My love for you never ended; I just buried it deeply. I believe I always wondered if we’d ever speak again. Yet here we are. I love you more than my beloved Mr. Darcy. There is no contest. There never was.
Ardently and admirably yours,
My Well Read Darling
I too have an affinity for Jane Austen novels. It has been many years since I have read one but I have dipped into Emma, Sense and Sensibility and the afore mentioned Pride and Prejudice. Let us be honest here, Pride and Prejudice is the stand out. You say you love the film version. I think the BBC mini series starring Colin Firth is the gold standard. I wonder if you have watched it?
Do I cringe? Well the answer is mightily. Not because you have a crush on a fictional character, but because you could compare me to one of fiction’s more desirable heroes. I am not worthy.
I wish that my memory of the text was as robust as your own. I cannot quote it, so sadly I am unable to give Jane Austen a voice in my response. I do know that I loved the way she wrote her female characters and that within the constraints of her era her women were often feisty and independent; characteristics you no doubt would recognise and identify with.
It hurts to read that you thought I no longer wanted you. It was very much the opposite. I thought that I couldn’t have you, but I don’t wish to make excuses for my abominable behaviour. I never have and never would describe you in such a manner as you quote. I no longer deserved your love. It didn’t matter from that point onwards. I took my succour wherever I could find it. I cared not a jot. What I threw away when I betrayed you would never be, could never be replaced.
I love you now as I loved you then, unashamedly, unabashedly and unequivocally.
You Will Always Be My Darling
From Sir With Love
©2014 Darling and Sir